4.32 am. Just an another night of me staying up and feeling lonely, hopeless, destroy. I dont even know how to write how to show my feelings right now. I just feel bad, i dont know. I cried too much, and i believe that there will be no tears could handle any problem.
There is nothing big. Had an argument or em... not really an argument. It was just me being ignorant to show my protest towards them and sadly nobody cares. What made me feel even worse when she said something that made me looks like i am a complete useless bastard. I rarely complain when no one bothers to help me with my things and why would others do? Just do your thing and leave me alone. There, nothing big. I think im just exaggerating things out and torturing my feeling.
I want to leave to anywhere. Being alone in your own house when all of your fam are there, is a bad situation. I rather to be alone in anywhere but not my own home.
I think me myself is a failure. If only commiting suicide wouldnt send me straight to jahannam, i prolly have died now.
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